Detroit

So I headed to Detroit last Sunday to start a new Management position with my Company, General Motors. It was rough to say the least. I missed my Husband and children so much. I enjoyed having some quiet time in a hotel, and the fact that the entire week was expensed with eating some very lavish meals in some really nice restaurants. I also enjoyed a quiet bath a couple times, don't get to do that too often. It was eerily quiet though. No messy faces, diapers to change, messes to clean up.... while I appreciated that, I had to go, go, go.... I also was the only woman hired into this management level. It was tough, although I get along with all my colleagues. I found myself really missing my friends, GIRLfriends, and somehow wondered how I ended up living a life that is dominated by males. I felt alone, completely alone. I didn't have my TEAM behind me. I felt judged on how I looked, what I said, how I spoke. Sometimes I wonder if there is a life for me that is different from being an executive and in the Automotive Industry. I have worked hard to be in the position I'm in, but there are days I just want to be a MOM, wife, artist, living simply. I have no idea how to even achieve that. We have 5 children to provide for, a house, 2 cars, and miscellaneous expenses that add up to a whole lot of "work" to do. Does anyone or has anyone every transitioned their life into something else? Has anyone or does anyone have any suggestions on how to change it up completely step by step? I've been self employed before, it's unpredictable and scary. I feel like I owe my children better and to provide stability, in a home, and financially too. I grew up moving all the time, with a single mother, no stability, changed schools often, made new friends, and just bounced around. I don't want that for them. I also want to live somewhere warm, and close to beaches and I'm right here in Michigan. It would be great to live a quality life, not always be pressured and live up to maybe something your just not. Can you believe I still don't know? I know a couple things...being a Wife and Mother are two wonderful things, however, I have to have a career or something I love to do that makes an income and provides for my family. I left Detroit with an appreciation for "home", and also added some things to my "sunshine suitcase"...I allowed myself some me time, took a nap after training classes all day, took some baths, ate on the top floor of the Ren Cen, & indulged in some cocktails a few times. I didn't worry about exercising, doing anything but focusing on myself. It was a good week that gave me perspective. I just wonder...is there another life for me?